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Monday, August 15, 2011


This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton 23; the twenty-third edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton. The theme for this month is FREE.

As she was painting with a continuous smile on her face, she thought of the old times when her freedom was ruled by others and the suffocation she used to suffer. She thought of her father and the others who were always a misery in her life. They always said they love her, but at her heart she knew they wanted to incarcerate her in the barriers of life. But then she smirked thinking she accomplished her freedom and none of them could now ever impede in the success of her life.

She did not even have any last memory of her father and after all, why should any be there after what he did to her. He always interrupted in her dating men, going to clubs and said her paintings were meaningless. He never supported her. She remembered once she was talking to her friends in her room when his father came and said “no one is here in the room. Whom are you talking to?” She knew he lied and was finding reasons to mock at her. She knew he never understood her and wanted her to be deprived of all the joys in life. He used to say “I care for you princess and you are free to do anything”. Free? She never was, it was just for the sake of saying it and thus her father deserved to punished and killed. Her freedom had to be taken away from him when it was not given.

When she thought her ideas could be finally expressed and she could live on her own terms, her lover started to interfere. He always kept her asking “are you fine? Are you missing your father? Don’t worry. I am there with you” and then she started thinking of him as a stalker. He always wanted to know everything about her and never leave her alone. He said he did not approve of her “imaginary” friends and must consult a doctor. He kept following her many times and said he did so to make sure she was well.  He said “I am concerned and care for you. You are free to do anything”. But she knew it was never so. He just wanted to take away her freedom from her. Those were just some words as used by his father. She started hating him, he did not understand her choices in her life and so he had to be killed.

But those were not actually any loss in her life as she had got her freedom back and freedom was her right. She could now live the way she wished for and paint the walls of her house. There was no barrier to her thoughts and there was no stupid fellow watching her all the time. She had new friends everyday and they always did whatever she asked for. But looking at the four walls around her, she started to think she still did not like one man. He used to come every day to her house and say all her world was an imagination. He said “this was a psychiatric care centre you are living in. you have killed your father and your lover. We are here to help you and you will be treated soon if you help us”. She thought he was imprudent and did not understand her freedom. Then she looked at her painting all over the walls 

and thought “I will kill him soon and make him realise that I am free to do whatever I wish for. I will be finally free” and she smiled silently.

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  1. In order to win back her freedom as she perceived it, she freed them from the bondages of life? Damn, her imaginary friends don't tell her other things?

    Well, nice article. The dark side is enthralling indeed.

    Blasphemous Aesthete

  2. wow dat was scary!
    psyched grls r so fun :)

  3. Well written - seeing from the world from the eyes of a psycho killer. Wonder how she got away after killing her father and could kill her lover as well. Overally you have tried something really different. Best of luck for the Blog-a-ton. Do find my post her In search of freedom

  4. @aswin: thank you so much :)
    @ Blasphemous Aesthete : yeah..when it gets over a person that somebody is stealing her freedom, the extent can be even madness
    @ Sadiya Merchant: than you :)..yeah...
    @ The Fool: than you...well she didnt really got away..she had to be treated then to overcome her rage and thus was sent to of luck to you too :)

  5. scary post nidhi.. Well written :-) Good luck for Blog-a-Ton.. Free... Are we?

    Someone is Special

  6. Thats why I dont listen to the voices in my head :P

    But a nice and dark story... very different treatment

    ATB for BAT

    Do check out my entry at Free? To do what exactly?

    Wandering Thoughts

  7. @Someone is Special and Aashish Sood : thank you so much..yes this this what struck me about being FREE(dont know why so) :)...and all the best to you too :)

  8. a dark post---from my stint in a psychiatric hospital for a while (as a doctor ofcourse :D), i know of such cases.
    I have seen schizophrenics suffer from such strong delusions and auditory hallucinations that they find it easier to live in a free world they have imagined as compared to the real one.

    a well written post, indeed.

    All the best for BAT! :)

    you can read my entry here---

  9. Interesting tale from the point of view of a psychopath.... Good one..

  10. Interesting one! Enjoyed it...good luck with BAT!

  11. thrilling post :D
    very nice
    all the best :)

  12. Interesting really.. pyscopath's feelings were well expressed

  13. @pri: thank you..and amazing that you have seen such cases yourself and so you could really understand the situation of the character :)..a very good luck to you too
    @vikram, Psych Babbler, sowmya: a very good luck to all of you.. thank you for dropping by and appreciating it ..thanx a lot :)
    @Srikanth: thank you :)

  14. Holy crap, that was diabolically sinister !!!
    Gave me goosebumps,n i am not kidding.
    The matter-of-fact narrative only builds up the contrast to the eventual climax.
    Reminded me a bit of this movie called "Kaun"-even that had a climax that just blows your mind away.
    EXCELLENT piece of writing, just superb!

  15. It is such a different story.. it took me time to understand the depth of the story and when it was revealed, it showed all earlier lines in different light!

  16. I can't believe how something so dark was presented in this manner!
    I do want more details though.

    All the best!

  17. @Brijender Singh: than you so so much for your appreciation..your enthusiasm cheered me up :)...
    n havnt seen "kaun" :\
    @aativas: hehe..that was the purpose.. to keep the mystery in the dark :)
    @enchanta: more details in a dark story makes me lose interst in it..thats why wrote less :|... n good luck to you too :)

  18. Ouch! Put the gun (I mean pen) down and let it think some happy thoughts. Liked your different take on the topic.

  19. At times we realize that we can be free only we are left to decide on our own, plan things according to our wishes and live without any interference. Your protagonist also felt the same. But life decides our fate and we have to accept it. But this post is truly excellent.

  20. Freedom is required for expression...

    I think this story can be made to a small film where kalki koelchin be the heroin...

  21. @Sunjoo Krishna : i generally write motivational things as i believe in them...but dont know why but this is wat came in my mind when i saw the topic "free"..may be the serial killer movies effect :D
    @Cherry Blossom : yeah... this is what the character felt that she can have her freedom by stopping interference from may even be love from the other side
    @ ketan: hehe...all her movies are not like that..only :shaitan" was ..

  22. hmmm.....creepy...we need to stay away from such ppl...nicely written :) all the best for blog-a-ton

  23. Wow that was a nice Awesome mysterious story, nice twist & turn !

  24. @megha and astrosunilnomy : thanku so so much...its nice to see when people like the efforts :)

  25. I am obviously very late in checking blogaton and hence this post .. but my God what a scary and awesome post .. Great one Nidhi keep it up.